Saying goodbye is always difficult, especially when the thing you're saying goodbye to has played an important role in your life for the past four years - shaping your future, acting as a welcome distraction, and providing opportunities for you that you'd previously only dreamed of. If you hadn't guessed already, today will be my last post on Lipgloss & Lashes, and instead of just disappearing, I wanted to take the time to explain why I'm going, and where I'll be going - you all mean too much to me to simply disappear. I also want to quickly take the time to thank each and every one of you - you'll never know how much you helped me, or how much you mean to me, and knowing you over the past four years has been an absolute pleasure.
Lipgloss & Lashes was born out of one of the darkest times of my life, and it quickly developed into the support network that I needed - it was somewhere I could channel my creative energy, it allowed me to meet some of the most supportive girls on the net, and it pulled me out of my dark cloud and onto greater things. Without this blog, I'd definitely not be where I am today - both in my personal life and my work life, which is why it's so upsetting to leave it behind.
However recently, I've been feeling a little bit out of the loop, disconnected from the blogging world and generally down about my blog - I'd put this down to the pressures of full time work, living in a busy city, long commutes, the negativity which often breeds in the blogosphere - you name it, I blamed it. It wasn't until the other day, when I was on a walk with a colleague talking about how I was feeling, that it struck me - it had nothing to do with the blogging world, or any external forces, it was more a lack of passion from my side. Whenever anyone asked me 'when will you stop?', my answer was always clear - when I fell out of love. I'd never want to let any of you down by producing rushed, and empty content, and I feel as though that's been happening more often than not recently, which makes me so disappointed in myself.
It took me around 5 months to realise and accept that I'd fallen out of love with beauty blogging. I've put my heart and soul into this blog for years now, often staying up all night to make sure each post was perfect, almost breaking bones to get the perfect angle for a photo, missing family events to ensure I had enough time to blog, so I guess I just didn't want to admit to myself that all of that would be 'all for nothing'. But it wasn't all for nothing, I've grown tremendously as a person though this little blog and I wouldn't be who I am without it - that to me, isn't all for nothing.
However, I'm not saying goodbye to the blogging world completely. Through my job I get to work with some amazing bloggers (although from the other side), and instead of continuing on with Lipgloss & Lashes, I've set up a new venture - Sail Away. Through working at a large, international airport and through my own travels, I've become much more interested in sharing my experiences both near and far. While my passion for beauty has dwindled, my passion for travel and life experiences has grown in leaps and bounds, so I wanted to focus on this. I could have just rebranded Lipgloss & Lashes, kept my followers and carried on, however I wanted a completely fresh start. With this comes the struggles of setting up a new blog and developing an audience (which I definitely don't miss from the first time around!), but I'd never want to force my beauty followers to listen to my travel rambles and as I said, a new start was very much needed. I hope you'll continue to follow my rants and rambles over on Sail Away, but I completely understand if you're also willing to say goodbye to me too - after all, I assume you followed this blog for beauty reviews!
So this is goodbye, and I wanted to finish with one of my favourite quotes about saying goodbye - "how lucky am I? To have something that makes saying goodbye so hard".
For the last time,